Hair lightening results:
Last night I mixed together 2 tbsp honey, 3/4 cup distilled water, and 1 tsp cinnamon, then left it in my hair for an hour.
Overall, it didn’t change much. It definitely has more red undertones now, especially the back where it was darker, but the light parts don’t really seem any lighter.
Kind of disappointing right now, but I think I’ll try it again when I get home.
March 01, 2012 | 04:55 AM |
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How I used tea to lighten my hair
Disclaimer: This is not magic. This is a faint glow. But it is straight and silky and fantastic.
I put 6 chamomile teabags in a large mug with about 1/2 teaspoon of paprika (totally optional, I did this because my hair has red tones that I’d like to enhance), and poured boiling water over them, then covered them with a plate and let them steep for 15 minutes. I then mixed that with a couple of tablespoons of lemon juice (something that I don’t usually do, but I’m getting impatient), put it in a water bottle and shook it up, then poured it through my wet hair a few times. Then I put it up in a shower cap and left it for 20 minutes. Rinsed it out with no shampoo, and blow dried it.
Link to my honey and cinnamon post: Voila!
December 29, 2011 | 03:44 AM |
November 03, 2011 | 12:27 AM |
“you have a fat ass.”
he just texted that to me.
i told him i needed motivation to go to the gym.
that was his response.
he was the only person in the entire world who knew about my eating disorder. i confided in him, i trusted him, i fell in love with him. he knew everything.
and that’s what he said.
October 14, 2011 | 10:14 PM |
hmmph.
two weeks ago my body fat percentage was 22%. after working with a trainer for two weeks, it’s down to 19.6%
why am i still fat wtf.
October 14, 2011 | 03:20 AM |
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i don’t know what to fucking do.
i’m a failure. a fat fucking failure.
i’ve been doing this for a year. i’ve been eating 1000 calories every day for a year. this time last year, i ate two pop tarts for breakfast. i came home from class, made two grilled cheeses, a thing of tomato soup, ate half a bag of goldfish, and some chocolate for lunch. for dinner, i’d make an entire box of macaroni or a frozen pizza. and in between, i’d eat cheez-its, cookie crisp, croutons.
and guess what? i still look the same.
i thought if i cut my calorie intake, started eating healthy, did all the right exercises, that i could lose ten pounds, lose twenty. and instead, i got an eating disorder. instead, i’ve starved myself, so much that foods i’d never touch before are now a delicacy. because i’m so fucking hungry that i’ll eat anything. i’ve become a slave to labels, to ingredient lists, to calorie counting. i tried. i tried so hard. nothing’s changed.
i eat everything i’m supposed to now. 1200 calories a day. for months. i spend hundreds of dollars on a personal trainer. and i weigh more than ever. my thighs are bigger than ever. now i snort ritalin when i drink so that i won’t binge on pizza. now, if i do binge on pizza, i sit in the bathroom and gag myself until it’s gone.
and i still look the same.
and now i’m haunted by food. i eat my roommate’s food out of the garbage. i dream about food. i stand and stare at food in the refrigerator. it consumes my life. nothing has changed for me. not the way i look, nothing.
i have an eating disorder for no fucking reason.
September 26, 2011 | 09:50 PM |
fashion models are thinner than 98% of all women?
well i’m trying to be a fashion model, so fuck me right?
September 25, 2011 | 03:57 AM |
drank two bottles of wine, ate two bagels, three grilled cheeses, a large pizza, a thing of breadsticks, a thing of cinnastix, and half a jar of nutella.
made myself throw up five times. only because i was so full that it hurt.
it was kind of fun.
September 19, 2011 | 02:53 AM |
alright, time to get my shit together.
what do you want more? the food? or the body?
the food? or the modeling job?
the food? or the agency contract?
the food? or your dream?
eating food lasts for merely minutes. this will last forever.
July 14, 2011 | 12:41 AM |
